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I was a dreamer Out of tune with the world, I had my own adventures. Heroes and squires, princesses in castle, Fire-Breathing Dragons. I started talking to myself, saying my conversations out-loud, it added an extra layer of immersion, made everything more real. The other kids whispered and bickered, huddled up and like a lump of amalgamation as they plotted their dissimulation.They called me a madman, incapable of distinguishing reality to fantasy. They called me a loser, incapable of winning. They called me a dreamer, disjointed from reality. Demeaning tags I accepted willingly. I was a healer I helped my fellow losers. Those broken beyond repair. I was their dumping ground, a trash can for their frustrations. But I knew better, everything I heard from them was one sided and likely misconstrued. Changed in a way that would victimize them. I offered solutions to their problems to no avail, they'd rather stay a victim, stay a loser. In their blindness, they clung to my kindness...

I was lonely I was scared darkness loomed In all of my days I gloomed I grieved I moped I woed But then you came And lit my day Morbid of my eternal blues You changed my way I laugh I smile I blithe Up on cloud nine things might change friends come and go You may feel scared You may feel alone But I will cling, I will clutch I won't go, I won't turn away I will stay with you  in all of our days

As the light begin to fade And darkness seeps in As depression feasts on my soul And whispers fill my ears I sat there alone Looking for the light  That once filled my day  With endless joy and laughs As life push me down And deny my existence As people laugh And mock me I sat there alone Yearning for help No one came I was alone As my spirit broke And my hope extinguished  Demons came And made it worse I sat there alone Believing the lies they say Life is too hard Life is not for everyone Alas I found my salvation And no longer do I fear If this life is too hard, why not end it? Start a new life, a second chance I sat there alone Till the last drop of blood drip out my wrist I was contend, no longer shall I be alone In the end, I was still alone